Yesterday was the pelvic ultrasound (inner & outer). It went good. shh don't tell, but I was hoping that a baby heartbeat would be the surprise...not PCOS. I'm still waiting on the Doc's call...but even just me- the untrained eye...I can tell that my ovaries are full of black dots ..aka: cysts that are all crammed in there. I was hoping I'd see a clean collection of growing follicles. Unfortunately, not. Anyway, I've changed this blog to be one focused on PCOS and emotions that are associated with it.
there aren't too many places to vent these days without getting the "it could be worse" card..or better yet, the "awe, I'm sorry" card. I don't need pity, and I don't want your comparison optimism. I just want a place to vent, where other people can vent, and where we can compare stories and hopefully encourage one another. There are many TTC networks, I'm part of a couple of them...they are great. but there is something about journaling here. gotta love blogging.
ps. the attached picture isn't my ovaries, but I just found this on the internet. it looks alot like mine.
Stinky Pee Blues
Today is only my 8DPO, for those of you out there TTC and know how stinky it is to await POAS and/or AF. Lot's of abbreviations for things that are not to much fun to say.
Mason & I have been TTC since February 1st, 2009. So, this week makes it 5 & 1/2 months. It's still with-in normal range, but I am irregular & I have been spotting continual dark brown (lightly) since 3 DPO. Today is 8 DPO, and this morning I POAS (WHAT was I expecting!?), and of course it was a BFN. But just now, I got AF. Well, spotting dark red AF at least. I'll still POAS 14 DPO and again at 18 DPO if I don't have a constant AF by then. But what a bummer. I have been really hopeful this cycle. Since my cycles last anywhere from 21 CD's to 50 CD's....It's hard to tell when the next time I'll test will come around. It has been discouraging. Mason is getting antzy too. But, I think God does have the best timing in the world for us...I know it. We just have to trust him and keep the faith.
Mason & I have been TTC since February 1st, 2009. So, this week makes it 5 & 1/2 months. It's still with-in normal range, but I am irregular & I have been spotting continual dark brown (lightly) since 3 DPO. Today is 8 DPO, and this morning I POAS (WHAT was I expecting!?), and of course it was a BFN. But just now, I got AF. Well, spotting dark red AF at least. I'll still POAS 14 DPO and again at 18 DPO if I don't have a constant AF by then. But what a bummer. I have been really hopeful this cycle. Since my cycles last anywhere from 21 CD's to 50 CD's....It's hard to tell when the next time I'll test will come around. It has been discouraging. Mason is getting antzy too. But, I think God does have the best timing in the world for us...I know it. We just have to trust him and keep the faith.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
